Covid Love Story

The pandemic hit, and I fell in love and experienced heartbreak with a woman for the first time in my life . It was unfortunate as I didn’t experience my first lesbian love in person as I couldn’t go to any social events and understand people on a different level.

It really felt like a fever dream, the mysterious lover who I only knew through text and social media posts. I told myself I was delusional and in denial, but somehow I ended up worrying if the text I sent would be the last time she would answer back. Imagining and daydreaming to escape the soul-crushing reality of never knowing when we would go back to normal helped me cope with being in quarantine.
At the same time, I wish I could go back and un-do everything but I don’t know if that would’ve been possible. In the end, I just feel like I’ll never really understand why it ended the way it did and I’ll just have to live with that fact for life. And I think that’s okay.